All I Want For Christmas,

ISYOU.
So, I'm a hundred times better today. [:
SCORE.

I love my Momma.

I miss Parker.

& My La.
But I'll see them soon.

I still don't think it feels like Christmas. 

Oh well.

I wish I could eat more.
It's been eight days.

I'm sorry all I post is crap these days.

No, I miss him a lot. |:

I'll be all better soon, I hope.

My hand is so tiny. |:
I miss him. 

So, here's some picture with random commentary to try and get this blog back to normal!


THIS IS MY ONLY GOAL IN LIFE.
I'm attempting to eat one on Sunday.
Which me luck.
Because, I.WILL.EAT.A.BIG.MAC.SOON.
>.<
I'm determined.
And really really hungry.

"We Brought You Christmas!"

Jess & Parker came to see me today! (: Even though I fell asleep after like half an hour. But I'm doing tons better today. Wooo! Go Ha. [: But dad just went to go pick up the steroids that the doctor called in for me.
But, I now have a Waldo Shirt & Scarf, The Spongebob Movie on DVD, & other things that I don't feel like listing because I'm tired. & Have been up for two hours. GO ME. I've got the shakes again. It doesn't feel like Christmas. :|

&Ijustcantlookit'skillingme.

&TakingControl.

Hey. I'm pretty much just dying here. I need some La time before I go crazy. & I REALLY miss Parker.
Hopefully they can come over tomorrow. Because I miss my Jess & RyeRye too.
I'm doing a little better. Woo! /: Sleeping with the Heating Pad helps my neck/back & I'm still spitting junk out every two minutes because I have Thrush. But I have anti-biotics for that now! & As always, the Demerol so I don't hurt like hell.
LAUREN BROWN:
I love you, I think that you're amazing and you need to keep your chin up because you deserve to, even when I'm not here to help you. You got this, sweetheart, I know you do. ♥

& This:
http://wehaveareasonn.blogspot.com/2010/12/we-need-that-one-person.html

Made me smile a ton. Even though smiling is rather painful. Oh, btw, get your tonsils out while you're young. Because it's hell.

I'll try and make this more interesting soon.
xoxo.

Demerol Dreams.

Well, we got the rest of my meds yesterday, so I've been knocked out since then for the most part. & I just took some more, so my hands are going all crazy again; but I'm waiting on Mom to get home because she told me that she was gonna get some KFC Mashed Potatoes for me! Wooo! I miss Parker. I didn't get to see Che. The room is spinning, I'll be back whenever I wake up.


Six Hours Later:
Hi. Those potatoes didn't go so well. So I'm trying again. Actually, Momma's forcing me to eat something so I don't die. :| This isn't even worth posting. Later.

You're The Reason Why I'm Home.

GoRadio. 

My head is killer, and I don't have much to say, but here's a random/attempt to be cute in my high off of painkiller's state! Woo! On the bright side, I did manage to eat almost a full bowl of mashed potatoes! I'm proud, because it's the first thing I've eaten today. 

Today is enough. You don't need forever and always. You don't need promises of days that never come. Today is enough, you don't need the words that cannot possibly be true. Nothing is forever. Nothing lasts for always. Today should always be enough.

I miss you.

I want someone who won't care that I hate wearing shoes, that I'm incapable of sitting still, that I can't grasp the concept of cleaning, and I refuse to be ladylike. Someone who realizes that half the decisions I make I usually regret, and I have the right to overreact at any given moment. I want someone who knows how completely insane I am, and he wouldn't want me any other way.

I was proud of myself for taking/editing this one!

I miss this day. I ate solid food, and was my loud self.
& I really sucked at Checkers. 

With you, it's like I hold on for some reason, even though every inch of me wants to let go.

Go Radio.
Do Over's & Second Chances.

'Cause baby, you're a firework. 

Baby, you keep my heart beating. <3

& I want to thank Cala Thomasson for keeping me positive with all of her Get Well Soon wishes for me all over my Facebook wall. [:

Give Me Novocain.

Because I'm out of my pain killers already, and I hurt, and Novocain always makes me feel better because I just go paralyzed. & Now that song is stuck in my head. I really wish that the Lora-Tabs I started out with hadn't made me itch, because they worked the best. :| Sigh- This sucks. I'm super swollen, and I kinda just want to cry. I'm so rough. I don't even know. Gah. FML much? Yeah. Dad won't let anyone come over for a couple more days, and that is just gay. Because Che is coming in today, and I miss La & Riah & Parker like none other. Oh my. I just want to sleep forever. & I'm out of Sprite. & I'm hungry, but I don't like how the Ice Cream sticks to my throat. I'm a wreck, and I'm sorry to whoever ends up reading this pessimistic post. It just hurts too much to talk and this is my way of ranting things out.  Here's some more pictures of my Hospital stay to entertain you; because I'm just gonna go on and say, that I looked like hell.

I had to keep the humor going somehow?
"Your Love is My Drug!" Aha, I was so stoned.

GIVE ME NOVOCAIN. (:
I try to stay happy?

Best Friends always make it better.
But really, That day was such a fag.

IV Lifeline. I'm not gonna lie,
 whenever they took that needle out of my hand,
I felt pretty great to be disconnected.

& Now you've seen just about every picture of me looking like crap with no tonsils and on painkillers. I'll try and have a more interesting post later, I guess it depends on what meds they get me on until they can get me more Demerol. Oh how my throat hurts. Oh dear. I hope I get better soon. I'd love to stop shaking too. Because it's taking me forever and a day to type. Anyway, thanks to everyone for the get well soon wishes and wall posts and everything. You guys keep me positive.
♥ 

Tales of The Tonsils.

So, I'm home now! & Drugged up, and tired and shaky. But La stayed the night with me and Momma, I passed out on Parker for about three hours, Mariah bought me Cake Batter Ice Cream, I threw a marker at mom because she made me mad at one A.M., I woke up in Recovery crying, mom told me I was stoned, and my hand is all swollen from my IV. But Lilija's card was waiting for me when I got home today. (: I have the greatest people in my life, even if I feel like I have a ton of cotton shoved in the back of my throat.

i love them.[:


he's such a nice boy.


i was alseep, and Rye was creepin'
But I like it?


She made a pilgrim face? I fell asleep as you can see.

SLEEP.

I'll write more when I'm feeling somewhat better.
I love you guys.