Day One: 15 Facts about Me.

1. I'm left handed.
2. I hate sports.
3. My jaw locks up on occasion and pops every time I open my mouth.
4. I wish I had my own library.
5. I keep a notebook with me everywhere I go.
6. I have self-esteem issues that I am over coming. (:
7. I have the best friends in the whole world.
8. I love Mexican Food.
9. I like going to the tanning bed.
10. I want to dye part of my hair blue.
11. I clean for fun.
12. I hate texting.
13. I love summer.
14. When someone compliments me, it lights up my whole day.
15. I'm happy.

New 30 Day Challenge.

1) Post 15 facts about yourself.
2) Write about the best friends you’ve had over the years.
3) If you only had 24 hours to live, what would you want to do?
4) Write about a period of time in your life where things seemed to be constantly going good.
5) Write about a period of time in your life where things were not so good.
6) When was the last time you cried? 
7) Upload a recent picture of you.
8) How do you feel today?
9) What’s the nicest thing anyone has ever said to you?
10) What’s the meanest thing anyone has ever said to you?
11) Write about the best day of your life.
12) Write about the worst day of your life.
13) What are your plans for the future? Far and near.
14) Post your favorite book, favorite movie, favorite band, and favorite food.
15) Write about something you worry about a lot.
16) Upload a picture of your room and talk about your room.
17) Bullet your day.
18) Post one confession/secret.
19) Write about your last birthday and how you plan to spend your upcoming birthday.
20) What did you eat today?
21) How has your life changed over the past year?
22) What made you smile the most today?
23) Describe what you spend most of your time on.
24) How was your week been?
25) Write a letter to someone you miss. 
26) Write about something you once loved, but now despise. 
27) Where is somewhere you would want to visit?
28) If you had three wishes, what would they be?
29) Write about any particular habits/mannerisms that you have.
30) Where do you think you’ll be in 5 years?

I miss these people!

JessicaAnn;

she's lovely.

KristinCheyenne;

I'M IN YOUR CLOSET.

PoisonIvy;

I just miss you.

Kirky(:

Bradward!

Ethal. (:

These are my main ones, but I'mma throw in Kyle, Jared, Sarah & Liv too just because they're wonderful.

The Lady & I.

This is my sappy post about La. (:

Truth be told, she is still what I consider my best friend. Sure, we've both gotten closer to different people in the past few months, but when I look back on it, she's my best friend. Sometimes I feel like we've drifted, and it's no lie, things aren't like this time a year ago. But that's okay. Wanna know why? Because the other day when my dad wouldn't let me go over to her house and I called to tell her all she said was "I haven't seen you in forever. I miss you." I kind of wanted to cry because I'm overly emotional and she's got a heart of stone, but I didn't. I just really missed being inseparable with my best friend. BUT! She's coming over tomorrow. I don't even know how long it's been since she's stayed here. I'm excited for some time with here to just be stupid and talk again. I love her very very much and I'm so thankful that I've got a friend like her in my life. 

So now, enjoy some random photo's of previous stupidity!

Mother Monster.

I'm on a Gaga spree, so I've decided to show you my favorite performances of hers. (:
Enjoy Little Monsters.

Speechless.

Edge of Glory.

Poker Face [ in French ]

2010 Grammy's [Poker Face/Speechless/Your Song] feat. Elton John.

2009 VMA'S [Paparazzi]

"&inthatmoment,wewereinfinite."

Today was one of the best days of my life.

I did absolute shit during said day, but it was amazing.

I went slept in, I went to the tanning bed. I went to the library. I played with my dog. I ate some ice cream. I started and finished The Perks of Being a Wallflower today. In that book, the main character, Charlie, talks about this one tiny moment with his friends, and they all feel this way. They feel infinite. Not only did I read that book today, but I learned what it was like. To be infinite. 

I was just riding along in the golf-cart as my little brother drove up and down the yard, the hills and the driveway. I had my legs propped up on the front, and I was clutching my book so it wouldn't bounce out. We ended up stopping to visit our grandfather, Pappy as we call him. We sat under the shade trees in his front yard, in the patio chairs. We ate Popsicles and just talked about things that we liked. I had forgotten how much I missed him. Then, as my bare feet combed through the grass back to the golf-cart, I looked around. Sunshine was bouncing off of everything. My thighs were pink, and my cheeks were warm. Duckling took me for the bumpy ride down to our own driveway, and I knew then. I knew, I was infinite.

I feel like in that moment, something just came up and smacked me dead in the face. It didn't hurt, no, but I feel like it was a very big turning point for me. One that told me that yes, things will be okay. That I am happy. That I will be. I want to cry tears of joy.

I want everyone to know this feeling.

this is who the fuck i am.

This is me, in all of my glory, my shattered and scarred glory. I call it that because of how far I've come in life throughout just the first two years of high school. I've been to the edge of sadness and and sank into the depths of depression. I have been sucked into the tornado that is anxiety. I have been emotionally battered by all kinds of people that should have been there for me. But you know what? I came back from all of that. That is now, and always will be the thing that matters most to me. I know now what I can take. I stand up to people that do not treat me right. And now, my only other goal than to stay stable and healthy, is to help. I just want people to come to the realization that I did. That I was better than all of those horrible things, and so are you. You are better than the nasty things that they tell you in the halls and message you online. You are better than the thoughts you think during the night before you fall asleep, those thoughts that cause the dam to break and the tears to fall. You're better than the razor blades  staring back at you in the bathroom. I've been there, and this is my job, to save you from yourself.

I consider myself lucky. I have been able to almost fully bounce back after all that has happened to me. I have learned that people will always judge and hate. And you will almost always get hurt because of it. But what I've also learned is that you will not get positive in life if you care so much as to what they think of you. Do you know why? Because this is who the fuck you are. No one will ever have the potential to be what you are. Don't be a waste of the beautiful person you will become. Life gets hard, but you have to stick out for those good times that we all live for. That's all potential is, sticking to it when things get hard and coming out on top. You can do this, and I'll do my best to help. Be who you were meant to be, no one else can.