You're Not Fat,

"You just have wide hips."
"I'm aware of my hips!"
"I like them!"
"You're pretty, and yes, I know that you're shoving food in your mouth, but I always think you're pretty."
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Hello there. So, we got straight distinguished in Concert Band at Festival on Thursday. Woo! It was a happy day.

Best Part: Eating At New China.

Wanna know why? Yeah, my boyfriend shoots spitballs at me every time we go to an actual restaurant. Oh well. Anyway, so on this particular day, he had been on a roll with shooting me in the face with said spit balls, and the next thing you know, one lands in my mouth. Yeah, it's not that big of a deal, it's just ParkerSaliva, I just found it kind of awkward because I'm a freak? I then proceeded to pretty much cackle for about three minutes. I got revenge by shoving a creme puff in his face ten minutes later. And that, that is why we don't go out in public, Parker dear, that is why. Society  can suck it though, because I love you. (:


Not-So-Great-Friday: Dad.

Daddy, I really wish that you could tell me that I just messed up and to not forget next time, and not lecture me to the point where I feel no good and I'm just sitting there at the table crying, trying to not hyperventilate because I really do try. I just, I wish I could feel like I was good enough for once you know?


Shout outs:

Lauren Brown: You're simply my best friend. I love you. I want you to know that you're not alone, and that I'll be there whenever you need me when you get your gallbladder out on Thursday afternoon. I'm going to force my parents to let me come see you, because I need you, I need to know that you're okay so you can get better. I went almost two days without talking to you and I felt lost and confused. I love you so much sweetheart. Don't believe the things that you feel at night when I can't be there with you. Don't you dare believe them for one second. You're too beautiful to feel that way. I love you Piglet.

Alexis Weedman: Hi, I miss you. I'm really glad that we're getting so close. You've helped me open up to so much in just the past week. I love you, I love how you make me feel so positive when I don't even want to try and smile anymore. I love that you and Jake were smart enough to come to the decision that you need to stop hurting yourselves because you can't see each other like how you need to. I like you.

Tabitha Frowen: I love you so much sister. I may be able to get the matching nail polish today, Dad gave me four bucks for babysitting. I love that I can tell you everything. I love you that you understand me, I love that you get all that I tell you. You're just the best. & I miss you,

Parker Findlay: Don't even get me started about you. I love you. I don't like to think about going through a day without you. You're my best friend, and I spend the most time with you, but it never feels like it's enough.

Megan Gray: Pamela. I just miss you. You're beautiful. & I love you, you Red Velvet Head. You make me smile.

i want to feel like this everyday.


not just sometimes.