you inspire me.

You know what? I have the absolute best people in my life. Best. This post is going to be dedicated to Lauren Ashton Brown. I love this girl. Love her. She may only be eleven, but she's going places. She's amazing.

Lauren: I just wish all of my friends were in the same grade?

Me: Oh me too! My group of friends has stuck together really well in high school, but we've all been friends since the 5th grade when we were the first class back at North. I'm just terrified that we won't talk after we graduate.

Lauren: Ah, I think you will. [: You guys are amazing. I wish I had friends like that?

Me: You'll find them. [: I don't know why it took me until half way through my freshman year to realize that though.

Because middle school traumatizes you. I've lost a lot of friends this year? Turns out they were fakes.

Middle school does do that. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. Everyone is fake and just trying to fit in and be like each other. I know, because I did that. & I hate to look back on it. I had friends that hurt me more than you can imagine. It's all just so stupid. So now? Now I walk into school everyday in whatever clothes I want to, with whatever makeup I want to because I don't care what people say, because I'm me and only me and I finally have real friends that accept that.

This is why I love you? Your amazing. Your freakin inspiring.

I love you too.
& I didn't know that I was inspiring?
I think you are(:
Because you're ten steps ahead of me, kid.

You are. [: I'm nott, I'm still trying to find out who I am? I don't know. I just try to be happy?

Guess what? I'm still trying to figure myself out too. I think it's a lifetime thing. & Happy is good. That's all you need.

That's very true. [: That's why negative people bug me? I mean, I know I am at times, but I try not to be. It seems like they don't?

I know. I usually just try and stay happy around them and hope it rubs off. & If it doesn't, I let it go.

Same here. But, I try to stay away from people like that. But, I must tell you this even if it has nothing to do with this- I love your 'Best Day Everr' album. It's beautiful. [:

You know what? I was just creeping that album. That was my 15th birthday party. That was the day that my two 'best friends' refused to show up, and I got over them. That was the day I turned my life around. I love you.

I love the fact you went to Vastwood in January. [: I love you, too! And, I'm happy you got over them. They're losers, and your amazing.

It was fantastic. Rather muddy, but it was worth it. & I love you.

11:18am

I never get to go? Yeah, but when I do I have to sit on the playground the whole time, and if anyone tries to move me, I spaz. I have to convince myself I'm not growing up too fast. [:

I do that all of the time. (: You're just fine sweetie. I promise.

I felt like people needed to see this conversation, this girl is absolutely beautiful. I love her a ton, and I hate that I don't get to see her near enough.

You're amazing Lilija. & I love you, & don't let anyone every bring you down.

I promise.