Some one Is Looking Up To You.

DON'T LET THEM DOWN.

Lauren babe, I love you. I really really wish that you weren't so sick you know? Because I don't like it when you're too sick to sit around talk to me all day on these stupid snow days that'll keep us in school without a summer. I love that we can talk about anything and everything together. I hate that I'm four years older than you because you are for reals, one of my best freaking friends in this world. You always tell me that you love me and that I'm amazing and beautiful, and that you  need me in your life. I need that Lauren. I really do. You're the thing that keeps me going, you know? If not, you do now. I need you in my life because I feel like I've become a better person because of you. I don't know why. Maybe it's because you always make me smile and hand out compliments like they're free candy, and you mean everyone of them. Maybe it's because you're ten steps ahead of me on not being afraid to show who you really are and not care about anyone else. They can take it or leave it, but you're still going to be you and the people that really love you are going to stand by you for that. That's what matters. And I'm going to stand by you. I don't care what time it is or if you even need anything and just want to talk to me, you call me girl. Because I keep my phone on full volume while I sleep and right next to me. Because I've had a time that once someone really needed me and I didn't get their phone calls and they fell apart without me. So I'll answer. I promise.

We creep SixBillionSecrets together. We creep quotes and pictures and Sonny & Claire and we talk about stupid boys and mean girls and our families and our life stories that are so alike that it scares me when it comes to certain things because I hate that you felt that like so young. You're strong and your beautiful, okay? You are. You know that. I love you. Don't ever change because someone challenges you to be something that you're not. When life sucks, knowing us, I'll probably have already gone through it and if I haven't I'm still going to try my hardest to make it better for you. Because you don't deserve to hurt. You don't deserve to be this sick and not know what's wrong. Get better sweetheart. ♥

"I don't care about a four year age gap. I get you and you get me"
^That made my day.

"ten facts about yourself;
1. I'm a genuinely happy person. I like who I am, and I won't fake it.
2. Life is going great right now, despite the fact I'm sick-I have people that love me,&& get me no matter how complicated I get. That's all that matters right now.
3. I tend to hardcore creep when I'm bored,&& it usually leads up to 400 notifications. Atleast it would if they hadn't changed the limit to 99.
4. I hate fighting with Parker Findlay, because it usually leads to not talking for a few days, or just talking, and fighting while doing it.
5. My best friend is someone 4 years older than me. It doesn't matter to me. We love each other, and no matter how creepy it is-it doesn't matter to me.
6. I hate fakes. Be yourself. You only have one life. Why look back on it& see you were some creep that wasn't themselves at the best time in their lives.
7. I wish I was like four. I hate growing up, and I hate looking back on it, because I-of course- wanted to be a 'big kid'. I really sucked.
8. I believe in God. Sure, I've made mistakes, but hasn't everyone? I'm not a saint, but I do believe in him.
9. I'm completely obsessed with Dear Claire;From Sonny. I have one copy of the letter on my wall, and one in a scrapbook. Thank you, Parker&Hannah. (:
10. I'm socially awkward, && I have no life. WOO."
-Lauren Ashton "Lilija" Brown. 

Look at me, I’ve gone this whole page without using the L word once so far. But looking at it objectively, realistically I... Let's say that I still love you... And I'm kind of afraid i won't ever really stop. I hope they're treating you well up there... ‘Cause I miss you more than you'll ever know.


To Claire;From Sonny.



I want a love story like that.
I want to know that you'll always love me even if I'm gone.
♥