I love my English Teacher. No one has been that inspiring to me in my life. Ever. I love that she trusts us enough to tell her the stories of her life. How she's been hurt, and is recovering, and everything in between. She had a car wreck a few weeks ago, and is just now coming back to school. Ivy & I went to go check on her after school when we had free time. As it turns out, that accident had caused her to have a breakdown. I wanted to tell her so many things. So many. I wanted to tell her I felt the same way. She took time off to focus on her, get her life back on track and know who she was again. She said therapy was going great for her and really helping. My Lexipro keeps me calm and happy, but I started to wonder if I just needed to talk. We'll see how this turns out and then decide on that part. I'm so proud of her. "I didn't know what I didn't know. I didn't know what I needed to figure out. I didn't know who I was. I was really trying but it just wasn't enough anymore. I was ignoring this big, huge change in my life and pretending that I was okay with it, but I just wasn't, and I didn't know what to do anymore. I got to the point where I was having chest pains during school and I couldn't breathe." I almost cried when she told me that. I felt the exact same way. I was sitting cross legged on the floor looking up at her in her chair like a little bitty kid at story time. I looked at Ivy, and she looked at me, and she knew. We both knew. That woman. Ivy goes through everything with me, we're so identical, it's almost insane. But, I'm thinking, if Mrs.Midkiff can do this, I sure as hell can.
PartyPoisonIvy: I love you so much, I hope you know that. I'm really looking forward to us planning this insane camping trip for the summer because we're dumb and will have tons of fun even though neither of us have really gone camping before. I have a huge tent. Just sayin'. You're the best. I know it. We'll get there, with or without that boy each of us called a best friend at one point. I really miss our nerd herd. Help me reconnect it after you get back from Chicago? I love you. <3
"I just..I feel like I've finally turned the page you know? Like I'm heading somewhere new. Maybe even started a new book! Life: Part Two."
"Yeah, part one was pretty rough wasn't it?"
"My part one wasn't the best.
"Mother, sometimes the sequel's the best part of the series."
"I hope so. It feels like it is anyway."
I love you MotherMidkiff! & Ivy. & Pam, the best lunch lady ever. (:
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