My Lovely.

This is my Lilija's birthday post. (:
Enjoy Sweetheart. ♥


Dear Lauren;

Happy Birthday Beautiful. I love you so so so so so much. You make everyday of mine worth living and you never fail to make me smile. I tell you everything and you tell me everything. You know my secrets and my fears. You understand what it's like to be the outsider, locked away from everything you've ever known. I love you. You have faith in me. I have faith in you. Pretty much everyone that knows us always ends up telling me that you remind them of me. That makes me happy, and it makes me sad at the same time. Happy, because I see so many amazing things in you darling. So many. You make me want to be a better person. You make me believe in myself. You make me laugh, and cry and understand things that I didn't know I didn't know about. Sad, because  I know what you've gone through, and I know what I've gone through, and I know what I'm going through now, and I don't want you to ever ever hurt like this. But then, I have these moments, moments where I'm almost completely sure that my life is perfect., and I think of you, and I think of me, and I think of us, and I know somewhere deep down that things are going to be just fine for the both of us somehow. You say that I'm the only thing for sure in your life; That's not true love. All kinds of things are true. Like how you're one of my best friends in the whole world. And you're beautiful. And the sun will come up tomorrow, and the moon will be out tonight. And you can see the stars outside of your window at night. And cats will always be really cute when they wash their faces. And duct tape is the key to life. And boys can break your heart and put it back together in a matter of seconds. And I'm always going to love you like you're my real daughter. And age gaps suck. And small towns are stupid, but they have everything we need if we look hard enough. And I'm sure that Thirteen Reasons Why will always make us cry. And your family will love you no matter what. And so will I. And I'm sure that you're going to grow up and be an amazing person and live next door to me for forever. I'm sure of all of those things. I promise.
I'm so happy that I'm going to spend this next year of your life with you. I hope that you get better soon. Soon as in, over night so you won't have to be sick on your birthday. I love us and our conversations and how I creep up on you whenever you are at school. Did you know that you're beautiful? And amazing? And stunning? And fantastic? And funny? And smart? And talented? And young and pretty and happy and inspiring and lovely? Well, you are sweetheart, don't forget any of those things. As if I'll let you. (:


Your beautiful, and amazing. I love you tons, and I always will, simply because of the fact that you are amazing, and you are inspiring, and you are my best friend, and I do love you.

I LOVE YOU.

I'M BLOGGING ABOUT YOU.

..I really think your honest to God, the best friend I'm ever going to have. I love you.

I LOVE YOU LIKE COWS LOVE GRASS AND YOU LOVE COWS AND I LOVE COWS BECAUSE COWS ARE LOVELY. LIKE YOU.

..THAT WAS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THING I'VE EVER HEARD. YOUR AMAZING.

I LOVE YOU AND YOU MAKE ME GIGGLE.

I probably look like a psychopath smiling right now. I don't care. Hi, your gorgeous. I miss you, yeah? I also kind of love you more than anything else in my life right now Your pretty. Really pretty. I'm creeping you.
I remember thinking you were pretty when I creeped you, and added you as a friend. Because, you are.

I love you. And, you are beautiful. I think your so much prettier than any model, and stick thin girl, anyone:

..*I love you.*

That made me so happy.

I love you, too. And, I mean it. Because, your beautiful. And, I love you. I can look at every picture of you, and I can't find one where you don't look beautiful. Even when you got your tonsils out. With braces, or without. With makeup, or not. Your beautiful. And, I love you.

6:16pm

sdlkfjhfdlgkhkrdehgkjdh I love you so so so so so so so so so so so so so much. Hug. Hugs for you. You are the most beautiful creature on the face of this planet and I'm so lucky to have you in my life.

I love you. I don't know why your proud of me, but it made my day knowing you are.

I'm always proud of you. I'm proud because you get up everyday and you keep going and you may feel like crap but you try and you don't give up. I'm proud because you're amazing, and you call me your best friend.

I love you. You don't know how much that means to me. You are my best friend. Your honestly the only real friend I ever had. There were so many times I wanted to give up on everything. On myself. But, I come on here, and talk to you, and everything is okay, because you tell me I'm worth it. That I've come this far, there's no point in giving up now. My greatest fear isn't losing just someone. It's losing you. I love you.

I love you sweetheart, and it'll take the world exploding for me to leave you. I love you. I'll be here for forever. I promise. You're everything to me.



Ewh. Fag IPod.

I LOVE YO U.

I LOVE YOU. I haven't been this happy in years?

I LOVE YOU. Keep smiling pretty! (:

I can't stop. ;P I miss youu!

I MISS YOU. BUT I LOVE YOU SO MUCH THAT I DON'T CARE.
(:

WOO. I want to send you this cat. ;D Please accept the gift.

I WILL. I WANT A KITTY.

HE'S A BAD KITTY.

HE CAN'T BE TAMED.
LIKE MILEY CYRUS.

THAT'S RIGHT. LOL. I LOVE YOU.

;D
I LOVE YOU TOO.

I'm not tired now? O_O

;p
I love you(:

I love youu.

I know. It's great. Like you. I love you woman.




I know, love. I know. I feel the same way. You know what? Don't worry about them. They're stupid. Your amazing. It's hard, I know. I'm sick of everyone in my class. I have breakdowns at school all the time. I hate it.

I just thought that maybe, I was on the right track for once and then people just leave me all of the time. I think it's me. I think it's them. I don't know anymore. It's just stupid. I just want a hug and some more time to fix things that I want. I feel like I'm screaming my heart out, but I'm out of words to say. Lunch is for real, the worst part of my day. God. I love you. I love you. I love you. Get better and we can run away.

It's not you. I mean it. Your trying. Your beautiful. And, I know. I hate lunch. Most of the time I just look out the window, and think. I love you. Your everything to me. I mean it.

I love you. You're the reason why I stick through these things you know? I think that maybe, if I can make it though, I can make it easier on you.

I love you. You're amazing and mean everything to me, Lauren. ♥
Happy Birthday.

I really am glad. <3

I love you.