So, Lilija went through her blog and posted some quotes that she liked. I'm copying.
It took forever, but you know what? I'm glad that I said these things.

The Bottom Line is that; We're not perfect. But he's my bestfriend. 

I've got three friends in the same school as me, a sickly eleven year old best friend, my boyfriend, and this blog. That's about it. I've got all of these crazy plans to live out. I want to do them. 

And I'm about 112% sure that I want them to be with him. 

Despite all of that, I tried to be happy. And I'd like to think that I succeeded. 

When you do feel most alive?

When are you happiest with yourself?

The Answers could be the key to your next big adventure.

Listen to them.

& It just so happens to be when I'm with you.

Yeah, I'm Harley. The girl that always falls for the guys that don't love her like she loves them. Harley who tries to help people, but her own mind snaps in the end. Harley who'd do anything as long as she knew she was still loved.

You're alive. & All of the people that I've helped stay that way have a roof over their heads, at least one parent, and more than one friend there for them. I'm just like; Really guys? Maybe you need to calm down, take a step back and look at life. It may be cold outside, but the sun is still shining, and the last time I checked? It didn't shine out of your ass. So shut up and be happy for once. People are so much more beautiful when they're happy.

People say that I contradict myself. Well you know what? I don't know who I am. I think that's why I find myself relating to Harley the way I do. She doesn't really know who she is, but she knows that she'd do anything for someone that she loves. She puts up with things from everyone that she doesn't deserve. She gave up her life. She's a wanted criminal. She's unstable and one more minute from cracking. Or maybe I just over analyze everything. Okay, yeah, I do. I need to stop relating my life to a Comic Book Series. It can't be healthy. Well, I know it's not if I'm relating that well to Harley Quinn, because she's insane.  I'm an idiot. I need to stop degrading myself. 

I don't know anymore.

But did I ever really know in the first place?

I don't think I did.

I can rant about how I feel about people. I can rant about my best friends and how much they all mean to me. I can rant about how for once, yeah, I'm happy. But the bottom line is? We're all people. We do things that we're going to regret sometimes. & To me, that's okay. Because if you honestly care about someone like you say you do, then you'll forgive them and work it out and make sure that they're okay, because maybe lashing out is their only way to cope. I say that because I lash out at people when I'm upset but don't want to talk about it. I say that people mess up because they do. I say that you forgive them when you love them because that's what you do. You try for the people that you care about. It doesn't matter if no one else understands what you have together, because in all honesty, they shouldn't understand what you have with the person you love. They should know what it's like to be with the love of their life, not yours.

 The past few days people have just been telling me that they love me,- inspire them even.

I want to believe them.
I want to change this world we're in.

I want to get something that I deserve.
& I want it to stick around for a while.

I need you in my life because I feel like I've become a better person because of you. I don't know why. Maybe it's because you always make me smile and hand out compliments like they're free candy, and you mean everyone of them. Maybe it's because you're ten steps ahead of me on not being afraid to show who you really are and not care about anyone else.

I really miss being little. I turn sixteen on Monday, and I know that I'm going to come home that afternoon and just cry my eyes out. I really don't want to grow up. I hate it. It drives me nuts that I spent so much of my childhood dreaming of the day that is coming three days from now. I mean, if I had one wish, I'd probably be to just go back and relive everything. I wouldn't change anything because then, I probaby wouldn't be where I am now, and no matter what's been going on recently, I like now. But just to go back and relive those years? It'd be amazing for me. Yeah, I made some really stupid choices here and there, and I got pretty messed up emotionally, being friends with people that brought me down for so long, but because of that, I'm here now. I have the best friends in the world. I have a boyfriend that I really like, and yeah, we're not the best sometimes, but we're human we still like each other and that's what matters to me.

I can't make you see what you mean to me. I can't make you see how much this is hurting me. I can't. It's too complicated. I just want to be with you. But there's a foot of snow outside and too many miles for me to count.

What's to say? People come in and out of your life all of the time. You need people to function. You love some. You hate some, you don't care about others. Actually, you love a select few. You need them. They need you. You miss them just as they've left and they can make you happy just by telling you "Hi" in the hallway. Then there are your best friends. They keep you going. They keep you smiling. Then there are the people you live for. The ones that tell you how much they love you and they need you and they tell you everything. Then there are the people you're so head over heels in love with that you'd do anything -anything for them to just be happy in some way. You wish that they'd be happy with you, but you'll take that risk, just to see them smile that smile that lights up the sky and makes your heart beat a thousand times faster but at the same time the world seems to slow down. Yeah. That person. I hope you all find them. Like someone just told me, there are going to be bumps in the road, there are always bumps, but things will work out. Here's how I look at it; If you’re supposed to be together, you will be in someway. & If not, you're hearts gonna break for a while and then the person that you're supposed to be with is going to come along, pick up all the pieces, duct tape them back together and keep it safe forever. That's how life works. People come in, and people walk out. You meet some unforgettable ones, and you meet some that you'll spend hours trying to figure out where you've met them at. To someone you're just a stranger in the crowd. And to someone else, you may end up being their Waldo. They'll spend all day searching for you in that crowd. And when they find you, their eyes will light up like it's friggin' 4th of July outside because you mean that much to them. You're someone's world. The person you're going to fall in love with is walking around this planet right now. Go find them. Because I need someone to prove that I'm right here, because I don't really think I know if I am right now. 

 I'm tired. I'm tired of sitting in this freaking house everyday not being able to do anything. I'm tired of sitting here wanting to scream my heart out to the world, but feeling like my lips are sewn shut. I'm tired of tip toeing around my own house trying to not make everyone mad. I'd like to just say screw you, and walk out one day, and do what I actually want to for once.

I don't know. I try to be a happy person. I really do. I don't know why I let the world get to me like it does. I think I just need to remember to breathe. Which, I can honestly say that I have forgotten to do at some point. I just stopped breathing and then I was like "GAH! I'M RETARDED" Yeah, don't judge me. 

 I was tempted to poke him..but refrained because that is mucho creepy, even on my scale, and that's where peeking in the window's is when someone loves you

I was happy. He makes me happy. He makes me not want to be like this anymore.  & That gives me hope that I can finally get away from all of the darkness that's been eating at me for the past three years, and almost swallowed me whole last year. I'm ready to finally let go the rest of the way. I realize how much good has come from making all of those changes almost a year ago. I realize that I now have everything that I need, and so many people that love me. Sometimes I wish I knew what was wrong though. Sometimes I wish that it wasn't so complicated for people to know me and how I really am deep down.